Day #22 - Motherhood

One minute I'm crouched over the sink, puking my guts out and the next, I'm reminded of the indescribable emotions that a Mother has for their child. Today was Landon's first day in the "big boy" class and as expected, his shy demeanor is noticed immediately as he observes a couple of older boys laughing and acting silly. I can tell he wanted to join them, but Landon is cautious - always making sure he's comfortable first before he opens up to anyone. On the other hand, his classmate Catherine, is already joining the older kids and being rambunctious like the little social butterfly that she is. Landon turns to me and waves good-bye. I gave him a kiss and turned to head towards the door. I looked back only to see that his eyes started to fill with tears , but he wouldn't cry. At that moment, when we looked at each other, there was an understanding...he understood. I quickly walked away and cried on my drive home. Flashbacks of my childhood started to flood my mind as I remembered waving good-bye to my Mom on the way to school. Even time can't erase these images from my mind. When your child's heart hurts, you hurt. There's no immunity to these feelings. The love between a mother and their child is beyond any other love that a person can experience in their lifetime. I thank God everyday for Landon - he is my soul, he is my life, he is my everything.